Elliptical of EVIL

19 minutes

-60 minutes

- 41 minutes

Oh, so not doing 41 minutes between now and tomorrow - BUT! - I will try to get in another 3 minutes, which is what I'm up to on this horrid machine. HOWEVER - I'm also "getting over it" faster than I was - it took me 10 minutes of heavy breathing and sweating (god I WISH it was sex) before I felt "normal" again. After my 3 minute session (3 minutes last night and 2.5 minutes the night before - I'm gettin' betta!) this morning (god, 5am shouldn't exist!!) it only took me about 6 minutes to get over it. -.-

This is going to be  a wayyyyy slower process than I thought, BUT I will get there!

Or it'll kill me.

Guess which thought is winning at the moment?

Hope you guys can stick by me through this....

^.^

10.8 minutes

-60 minutes

-49.2 minutes

Yah, baby!

A new goal to motivate me...

I needed it - a goal that is.

So the elliptical is a torture device.
After only 2.5 minutes I'm breathing heavily and my thighs are burning.
But it gave me a couple thoughts.
The first is that "wow, you are SOOOO not in shape! omg, woman!"
but the second was my goal!

Starting now, my goal is to do 60 minutes/week on this thing. Until I can get used to it. And to graddddddualllllyyyy increase my resistence.

Before I explain, this is my work so far -

5.8 minutes

-60 minutes

-54.2 minutes

The blue number is what I've done so far for the "week".

The red number is what I've got left to do.

This will be changed as I update my blog.

And a 3rd thought - it makes my damn achy joints go quiet. w00t!

Eating? Yeah, not doing so well - but like I keep saying, every moment is a moment that's available for change! 

So even though I had baked ravioli at Fazoli's today, I wasn't a fan so I only ate 1/3rd of it - it's something I'm trying to teach myself: don't eat it if you don't like it or are satisfied.

Satisfy me, people!

Oh this is definitely going to be a love-hate relationship

The elliptical is in!
I was on it for 50 seconds last night.
2.5 minutes today.
I think I may die.
Omg.

I got more exercise in that 2.5 minutes than I have in the entire group of days I was on the bike.

Love - it makes my heart beat and makes me SWEAT.

Hate - even on "no" resistance (well, resistance 1) it's going to take a bit to get used to it.

Tonight, I'll attempt to add to my overall elliptical log.

But I am not too proud to say I'm afraid of that fecker. Omg.

Sweat on!!

Food, too.

Breakfast -
2 WW mini breakfast burritos - not too bad; the sausage is a little spicy.

Snack -
a croissant
& some cheese - not the greatest snack and believe me, I learned my lesson.

Lunch -
leftover cod fillet from last night
leftover spinach from last night - a very healthy, balanced lunch; not filling of course, but so what?

Snack -
a chocolate covered cherry

Dinner -
an 8oz sirloin steak
a salad
a baked potato w/butter & sour cream

So that was my food today.
Not great, but definitely not good.

Oh, and yesterday - I had a medium DQ blizzard. I paid for that as well, believe me. Turns out I'm becoming peanut-sensitive. w00t, right?

Otherwise, the new elliptical will be put together tomorrow and the torture will begin!

Let's Start At The Very Beginning...A Very Good Place To Start

Current Weight: 343 lbs (yay? at least I haven't gained it all back...)

Breakfast:
- 90 Calorie Granola Bar - if you're in this area, you can get 'em at Giant Eagle cheap; they're chocolate chunk, smallish, but tasty!
- Pina Colada Yogurt - from Yoplait. This flavor Mikey picked up; not sure about it, may not eat it all.

Snack:
- 1 pluot - this is an interesting little fruit, if you've not tried them they're probably in your grocer's case now. It is a hybrid of a plum (plu-) and an apricot (-ot) and has a plummy flavor, but a little bit of sweetness that you don't get in a normal plum.

Lunch:
- Homemade Lasagna - soooo tasty. Be jealous, seriously. Not really diet-conscious, but omg so good - and I know exactly what went into it. ;)
- a can of regular Mountain Dew - I know I know...but now my headache has abated!

Snack:
- 1 chocolate-covered cherry - I've been doing really well by eating one of these bad-boys per day. It totally satisfies my chocolate-lust and gives me a "dessert" that's so tasty, and I only need one!

Dinner:
- 1 cod fillet - made with crush Ritz crackers and egg; lightly browned
- veggies of some sort - this will be worked out later

Throughout the day I'll also be drinking a ton of Crystal Light (my favorite is fruit punch and probably a glass of white cranberry juice with dinner.

So, what's the title all about?
I'm kinda having to start over. Mostly because of this 'hiatus' from exercise I've been on. Since the last time I wrote things have changed. I'm no longer making it my goal to be healthy during a pregnancy because I'll probably never get pregnant. There's been a lot of personal stress surrounding that - mostly because we're gearing up for adoption stuff.

Our first meeting regarding adoption is on 09/13 - with a lawyer that specializes in adoption. We have lots of questions to ask her - it looks like the first thing we have to do is a home-study. That won't start, though, until probably around January - we're hoping our roommate Beth will be accepted to Kent State and with that a move into the dorms for her so we have room again to set up a kid's room.

09/17 we'll be meeting up with an adoption agency here in Akron - going to their information meeting.

09/23 (? - have to double-check this) we're going to the info meeting with Summit County Child Protection Services.

A lot of stress = depression = food cravings = me eating food.

Thank God I realize that, huh?

Anyway, I'm starting over. No structured exercising for a few days - we have to get the elliptical put together - but tonight it's crunches and weights.

I'm alive, folks...